todae didnt do anithing jus slack arnd had lotsa fun chattin wif moi fwenz especially those whu were wif moi when im real down i noe u all tried to cheer mi up thanks~ at a moment moi eyes was like fountain water running down moi face im jus like a cry baby hu olways cry and  my mind was so vexed tat i dunch noe wad to do i realli miss HIM alot i tot he would be online was happliy waiting but he wasnt there ha|x 3rd dae le onli 3 daes n i cant take it animore mayb its realli a test tat we both hav to go thru b4 we realli gt into it ba well....its gd it make mi realize i cant hav a stead nw cos even if i hav it wouldnt last moreover i dunch know HIM well n i doesnt wan HIM to waste time on mi

*iTs bEtTa FoR yA 2 fInD oThEr gUrLz hU cAn Do wAd I cAnT hU dEsErVe Ur LuRvE rAtHeR dEn WaStInG uR tImE hErE aI sHi HeN tOnG kU dE LuBiN+mIsSiN+tHiNkIn aLl iS tOnG kU sO lEt E tOnG bE gOnE*

ReMiNdER 4 MoIsElF------> DuN fAlL iN LuRvE aS i CaNt iT wUn LaSt So JuS wAiT iT wIlL cUm SoOnEr Or LaTa So JuS wAiT

wow todae quite fine la evening went to moi sis's campus waited abt 45 mins for her sia but nbm la since yesterdae she oso waited for mi quite long le i was lookin arnd to see if i could see HIM ha|x mei yuan fen mayb gt la but i oso duno how he look like onli saw his pic nia den went to e library to watch a movie cor "City of Angel" its abt a guy hu is an angel 1 dae when Doc Maggie was in e operating theatre operatin a patient e operation was veri smooth but when e nurses was clearing up e patient's heartbeat stopped Doc Maggie tried her best to save him but wasnt able to she was veri upset n guilt abt it n when to e quiet place n cried alone e angel was there but she couldnt see him... to be continued keke 1 thing i dun understand is y everyone hu saw e angel will die *how wish i could be e angel* although they couldnt see mi but its gd tat i could olways be arnd to protect them

*eVeRy MiN eVeRy HoUr eVeRy DaY i'M tHiNkIn+MiSsIn+LuRvIn YOU*

*aLtHoUgH iT's JuS 2 DaEs I dIdNt ChAt WiF yA i aLrEaDy MiSs Ya LoTsA hOpIn 2 ChAt WiF yA*

Starting of 1 wk skool holi le ha|x bored bored bored guess gonna get fatter n fatter n slack more holi nth to do de cant go out cant do anithing can onli face e walls n com *aRgHhHhH* at least todae was quite okay gt to go out wif moi sis in e evening was so paiseh to let her wait so long for mi *jie jie sorrie leh kekeke* went to had dinner n on e way backx home both of us gt a veri uncomortable feeling we felt like PUKING!!!! guess we ate sumthing wrong ba or ate too full le but after reaching home feeling much more betta came online n moi kor told mi HE ONLINE JUS NW!!!! ha|x i wasnt online why why why wei shen mo wei shen mo wei shen mo...why im nt immortal if i was den i would hav stayed at home ha|x but wat is done is done no point tokin abt it le ha|x let it be ba mayb go slp den wun tink so much~

*why why why???mayb we dun hav e yuan fen ba or mayb its meant for mi to hab more time to tink abt it ha|x ha|x ha|x i guess each dae i could onli chat wif ya for once if i missed e chance i wouldnt hav another chance i would treasure e time chattin wif ya realli miss ya lots n love ya too~*

kekeke was boring cos skool end damn earli todae summore no programme planned i was damn silly and lame to ask moi fwenz to run slower for morning run so time will pass slower Mrs Ess had arrange us for a talk by Mr duno wad frm SrJc Head of Department of Humanlities abt Jc life in IT Lab was so cold like freezing cos b4 tat we were in IT Lab oso for Maths and nw we r sitting oppsite e air con!!! tried to ren wif e cold after hearin e talk i felt chances of going to Jc was veri small as moi eng wasnt tat gd but tat speaker sae " we shld try to work for our dreams n vision and nt lettin other things to let it go backx to e same starting point" and oso " tryin to achieve is hard but giving up is easy" its quite true as we cant stand at e startin point n wait for miracle to happen and human when there are set backx they would tot of giving up they olways wan to achieve things smoothly n nt havin downs....after tat was Mr Lim's lesson he was so blur n tot we were going for e talk but eventualli we jus came backx frm there stayed backx in skool for awhile to help out for e Mathematics Department afternoon rained ha|x suay i was outside den rain hav to take cab home cos nv close e windows lucky Mother havben cum backx slack almost e whole dae lo onli use com watch teebee *kor i wanna sae thanks to ya for helpin mi and olways remember tat im olways there for ya when u need sum1*

+Finalli hav told ya e things tat had been kept in moi heart for long felt so relief and oso happi cant stop luffin even wan bian zui oso cannot :x i still duno whether moi feeling for ya is jus for e moment or i realli realli like ya i jus cant figure out but as time goes by i hope i could figure out n noe e answer no matter wad i'll olways be waiting n hopin  muackx+

wasnt a gd dae had diarrhoea keeping going toilet so sianz de summore rain earli in e morning lucky in skool liao was in skool for like abt 1 1/2 hrs den went for e army open hse lotsa skool nahz den keep lookin out which skool it is den gt moi fwenz or nt ekekeke saw a few of them but didnt call them as we nv realli meet b4 scared lata she duno mi den paiseh had lotsa fun but was kinda bored nth to do de all aircraft etc lo inorder to gt sum of e prize we did a quiz (our clsmates told us e ans :x ) wanted e bag de but moi luck wasnt tat gd while waiting for e bus i decided nt to stay on for e captain ball cos no mood summore i didnt bring moi PE shorts e bus stink!!!! at that moment i wanted to take a cab backx to skool cant stand it but still had to bear wif it lo no choice den fall in e bus ate lunch in skool (cheap ma cos no $$ liao haha) joyce n sam wanna plae captain ball keep persuadin us to plae lo (merge cls n plae) Cindy, K.E n moi went toilet cos they wan sms after we cum out Alethea n Amanda went home (lucky they r jus at e bus-stop) came backx n we discuss lo in e end we stay on n pale waited for an hour or so for tat game to start but wad e teacher dun allowed us to plae (wth man ppl wait so long le leh dun gif us face hahaha) onli e express classes was playing (farni rite?) but watever lo Cindy mi and Amanda went home n e rest stayed n see e game i was so stupid!!! i went to heartland n i realise tat Alethea's wallet n key was wif mi(y didnt i checked b4 i go?) K.E called Cindy and i waited there for e 2 of them lo waited for half an hour!!!(3 or 4 buses had passed but their wasnt here!!!) lucky i stayed lo cos i said if e other bus came they nt here i go liao but they was here!!! abit du lan lo cos when takin bus home oso needa wait althogether waited for abt 2 hours le waste moi time onli but wat to do nvm la kinda hav mood swing lo swing here n there ha|x

*ri si ye si tian tian dou hen xiang nian ta I missed him missed him so badly tried to cor him but he didnt ans cum online didnt saw him ha|x wad ta do i can onli wait *

todae nv go skool cos Teachers' Day~  slackin at home e entire day didnt do anithing lo jus sit infront of e com chat play reversi tats all todae was a short  dae time pass veri fast  on e way going to Hougang Point went to Hougang Green to Yong Yuan's workplace den was so farni so indecisive when going in so paiseh nahz {cos nv see him b4} went order food den like dun dare tok like tat hahaha buy dinner le cum backx on com chat again hahahha the channel 8 2000 show damn nice e siao hua and siao cao chio n yandao nv  win :(  realli happi chatting wif him but mayb i shld stop all tis likeing relationship is jus so sucky {hope moi feelin towards bgr will be netural for e moment~} am i able to do it? im nt too sure hope i can but rite nw i hab feelin for sumone le how????how????how????

+feeling so guilt towards u i could onli sae n tell u things jus hopin tat u will change for e betta n nt going to e wrong path i noe after i appeared in ur life its jus like a wrong i ruined ur life messed up ur life jus wanna sae no matter wad u do i'll olways respect ur decision n supportin u mayb tats e way u wan ur life to be i cant stop u+

summarise of e weekend:

Fri ---> boring dae e chi teacher was like hab pian jian towards mi n moi other 4 fwenz lo we tok den scold ppl tok neber sae anithing den after skool went heartland pierce moi ear 90 degree

Sat ---> was moi Dad's Birthday!!! didnt bought anithing for him :x jus went out to hav a simple dinner tats all except moi 2nd sis didnt go ha|x sao xing de nahz after tat went to moi grandma's hse tok lo n see moi bro's and sis's stead

Sun ---> dun felt like going for tuition but no choice cum backx frm tuition no 1 was at home!!!cool man alone leh den watched serivce lo was veri useful n kinda related to moi evening when to eat n la kopi wif moi sis her stead n his fwenz cum home wanna watched Paradise Hotel de but fall asleep *wondering hu won hu was e last couple Tara & Keith or Charlia & Dave *

Todae ---> quite ok morning olways had those announments DM said e skool soccer "C" division boys won e National Championship den Principal had his speech n said gonna hab half dae on Fri *was wondering y nt tml cos Fri skool olways end earli ma * everyone was like cheering DM oso said tml hav run for ACES Dae den everyone was like sian 1/2 lesson as usual during PG lesson had a lecturin frm Ms Koh again lo as usual we kept quiet n listen

todae started out quite gd lo but after tat tremendously terrible like kanna curse or sumthing ha|x didnt attend chi(cool) and pe (sad cos they gt to plae baseball!!) hate e chi teacher foreva man sux sux sux!!! sit outside general office for like 2 1/2hrs cool? cannot eat cannot go toilet sianz sia sit there do shity compo (title: how to tok to teacher poiltely)do finish liao go find him read liao den sae i still dun admit im in e wrong wtf i didnt do anithing wrong lo wan admit wad still wan mi write 2nd compo sia sian 1/2 ppl sit there thinkin wad to write den he siao siao de cum shout at mi sae wad ask mi write duno how to write ar -sot- den stand there shout i still duno im in e wrong ar wat hav i done sia jus sae y he cum so early for cls like tat rude meh like tat cor tok back arh teachers need to go for sum check up le ba..keep raising his voice when tokin to mi lo den i buay ta han liao den i cried and he keep wanting mi to admit im in e wrong n want mi to sae sorrie wor (no face if i sae it) of cos i didnt sae la den wan cor moi dad take num liao still keep askin mi e same question so wishy washy sia (hum ji) i keep dao-ing him lo den he nothing to sae den ask moi go backx cls moi clsmate told mi tat he sae wanted to let moi sit outside e office e whole dae summore sae i dun wan study liao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wat the hell fuck shit is these man gt such teachers tats y so many stduents is quittin skool so much thingys happened still hav oral test ha|x plan of postponing cos wasnt in e mood for tat summore it takes 40 marks of e final exam!!!(important) oral was alright la e conversation i said i'm happpi cos e teacher sae it's interesting!! woo hoo~ kekeke after tat when straight home accompanied by K.E cos wasnt in e mood of going out